I am missing my family and friends in VA so much lately! I have met some great ladies here, and they are very nice, but I just don't feel like I click with them. I feel like an outsider and I am just not good at making new friends. I had my old friends back in VA and we "got" each other and could pick up where we left off in an instant! I don't want to feel like I have to work to make friends, it should be effortless if it is true .. right? Although we are happy here, and we do like living in Colorado, sometimes I wish we were back in VA. Sometimes I wish we had never uprooted the family and taken this journey of unknown outcome across the country to a foreign place where we do not know anyone. Sometimes I wish we were more cowardly and stayed set in our ways and settled in the home we had established .. that we loved so much. I am just sad. Sad that I cannot go out with my girlfriends back home or go to their house where they understand my child and love him for who he is. I don't want to start all over! Maybe that is just me babbling because I am feeling down. I have been here for 5 months and I had met that "true" kind of friend, Natalie, and then she had to move! Sometimes I get so sick of being in this life of moving and having those you love move. I know we chose it, but I am entitled to be sad about it sometimes. It is a hard life. It does not get any easier and sometimes I just need it to be. Mike leaves again tomorrow for a week. So it will just be us here .. alone. These are times where I miss when Mike and Allen had duty on the same day and Christy and I would have a slumber party, yelling at the kids and all! Or going over to Lori's and staying for hours when I only intended a short visit. When my mom would drop by because she was down the street at the doctor's office and wanted to see me and the kids. Sometimes, I just want to go home to what is familiar.
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It takes a year until the homesickness subsides. Then when it recurs, it is much more dull of a feeling than the sharpness it is now. And making new friends isn't easy. Don't stop looking! If you aren't "clicking" with the people you're meeting, meet new people. Listen to any reservations you have about people (I've recently learned this...). But don't stop looking. And look around you. Write down EVERYTHING that you love about where you are at now - both the physical and the emotional. Consult that list when you're feeling homesick. And if you need to chat, call a friend (hint, hint). Love you!
Niki, I agree with Lori and understand what you are talking about becuz like you I also moved away for my husbands career. Jamie was not quite 3 and you just turned 2 . I thought I would never find friends like I had at home and had never been away from home much less in another country. We moved all the way to England. We made the best of it and it took me 6 months to a year to adjust,when I did I made some awesome friends. They are friends today 27 years later. Your dad was gone alot also. I know you are just having a "MOMENT" and that is so normal. Look at all you have done as a family since you have been there. Not to mention the uninterupted "bond" as a family without extended family issues. You have a home and family here anytime you need to come home for a visit with your dad and with me. Your sisters have their families and you have your treasured non replaceable friends here. You actually have just expanded your options if you look on the positive side of it. I miss being able to drive over anytime to see my grandchildren but such is life. I love them and they love me. This is all that matters. You are so BLESSED. God has done so much for our family and I thank him every day that my girls have overcome the issues of the last few years and have moved on. I love you and you know I am here for you and mike and the kids. I can't wait to see you and meet your new friends you will make by the time I come to visit in January. God Bless. You can do this honey. Love, Mom xxxxoooo
Awww Niki I just saw this post now!! Homesickness is TERRIBLE!!! I feel terrible we haven't talked as much as we should...believe me..I know what it's like when no one calls and you feel lonely...I'll be rectifying the no phone calls I promise!! Like Lori said..the homesickness will start to subside, you'll still miss home overtime..but you learn to adjust...I love you girl..and I miss our slumber parties too!!
Niki, I'm so sad we're not there. I totally miss just walking out my door and having an instant play date...especially now that I'm home-bound for a while. Colorado was hard on us too...I hope things look up soon. I'm sorry your neighbors couldn't live up to our coolness.
Miss you guys,
nat
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